Bionic Teutonic

The company I work for just got bought a couple of days ago. It’s a little strange in that, while I’ve never thought that I was invested in “building the company”, I realize now that there is a part of me that feeds off of the idea that there will be some sort of end state. And now that we’ve reached it, I’m a little disoriented. The employees aren’t really getting much out of the sale and we are left without a stake in the company, so now it kind of feels like I’m just pulling a paycheck. I think I’m realizing that I need to feel like I’m actually working towards some goal, even if that goal is ill-defined and doesn’t pay out at the end. Not just in my work environment, but in my life in general. It’s been making me think about how I get motivated. And it’s sort of odd. I’m don’t really care if a goal pans out or not as long as the path leading to that goal is fulfilling, but I need that goal in order to stay motivated for some reason. Which doesn’t really make sense to me. Why would I need to have a goal if I don’t care about reaching it? But somehow that seems to be the way I work. Go figure.

This entry was posted on Thursday, March 29th, 2007 at 9:25 am and is filed under Daily life. You can subscribe via RSS 2.0 feed to this post's comments. You can comment below, or link to this permanent URL from your own site. Your comments will be moderated but will appear as soon as humanly possible.