Adjusting
It’s been a little hard being back. I didn’t really want my vacation to end. Although I missed Ariel a bunch and it’s nice to be back with her, I’m feeling rather out of it when it comes to the rest of my life. It might just be the jet-lag but I’ve been feeling melancholy and a little depressed about the reality of my life since I got back. A job that does not really inspire me, debt to pay off, a home that requires use of a car to go do anything. It all makes me feel a little trapped. All things I have chosen and must take responsibility for, but that make me feel a little blahhhh nonetheless.
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March 16th, 2007 at 9:22 am
don’t i know that feeling…. i think you have it even worse returning from eden to rainier valley. the thing to remember is that you aren’t trapped. you have complete control over your life and where/how you decide what to do.
accept the melancholy and use it to identify the things in your life you can change to be closer to what you want. all emotions have their purpose…they are telling you something. listen to your body’s intelligence and make choices to change what isn’t working.
sometimes change is difficult and there is sacrifice involved, and it takes time and hard work, but once you’re on the other side, the rest is history.
i know this is a pat answer, and much easier said then done. however, i completely trust YOU can manifest whatever it is you want in your life.
myself, i’m on the 5 yr plan. i’ll do what i can with what is available to me to meet my goals, and find the lil joys in the small things and the general appreciation of living until i can radically shift things. the long view is helpful in seeing that things won’t always be this way
March 16th, 2007 at 9:28 am
i’m working on a plan that allows me to live in Bali (or somewhere tropical) for 6 months out of the year…for now, i just sit and drool over our pictures…